Tuesday, October 24, 2006
two ends of the spectrum
On one side of a pole, there is the kind of person who can always smile and pretend that there is nothing wrong, even when there is. On the other side, are the people who must let all their emotions out when they feel them without critically analysing them.
I'm not saying there are only two kinds of people. But which end is it better to be on? Obviously, somewhere in the middle is better... a person who would be able to be honest about their emotions, let it out slowly, and at the same time reflect on them. Atleast, I think that is the kind of person I would like to be.
Clearly, though, I'm more towards the end of the spectrum that makes me the person that can never hide my emotion. And the more exposed I am to people who pretend things are ok, the more raw and emotional I get.
The more respect I am given for the emotions that I feel, the more I'm like that balanced person I want to be.
I wonder... does it work the same way for those who are closer to the 'hide all emotions and smile' end of the spectrum? I mean, do they become more balanced when people realise that they don't want to talk about things?
I should be happy... just one exam left and this semester is over... it's as good as done now anyhow. But my motivation just grows less and less the close I am to graduating. Right now it just feels like a struggle to even do the work required of me... and excel? I can't now. I'm too preoccupied with other things. I need to find peace. I need to find balance.
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