The rainy blog: Dawning of horror
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Sunday, April 22, 2007
Dawning of horror

This sudden realisation dawned on me yesterday evening: I've got eight weeks worth of uni work to do all over again in the space of the last remaining month of uni.

Crap.

It's funny how it seems that for the first over half a semester that you really do nothing at uni, other than attend classes.

Lose all your notes, ideas, down-loaded research and you'll realise that you actually were working. Losing that work is losing your bibliography, more or less.

So, with a sense of apathy and panic, I walked with Sid to Scusami and quit my job. It didn't go too badly, I suppose...

Oh, and for those of you who are saying "What? Losing a bibliography can't be THAT bad!"... well, I say, start graduate school, and tell me again, how worthless a bibliography is...

The bibliography is the acknowledgement of great contemporaries, and your ideas are your responses to their views. Can you put a price-tag on imaginary conversations with esteemed academics? (Well, unless they read your essay, it's only you imagining that you are writing in response to them, isn't it?) And more importantly, how do you recover a conversation that wasn't captured? In this case, captured, but lost...

It's like trying to follow a trail that you once ran through enthusiastically, and are hesitant to go down a second time, because it's so familiar, yet in many ways, like the thoughts of somebody else. That's the most difficult thing...

The most annoying (but not difficult) thing is the loss of two PHD dissertations which I had downloaded at a price of US$37 each and have now had to download again. This time I backed them up immediately, and am now waiting for gmail to be done uploading them and then e-mailing them to myself...

Not losing those bastards again!

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