Thursday, April 05, 2007
Tramming it
I had a lot of dreams last night, but for some reason I only remember the first.
Daeshy and I stepped on a tram, and I sat down on one of seats that goes sideways, and for some reason he chose to sit down away from me, in a seat where he could see me from the side. I don't know why he did that. Then this guy walks on - he reminds me a little bit of a New York flasher, but he's an Ozzie version. He's got this 'rude kangaroo' puppet. It looks like a caricature of what a kangaroo might look like if you managed to turn it into an alcoholic. And so this guy is harassing me with this kangaroo puppet, and saying very rude things, and Sid just looks over and smiles the whole time, and sometimes laughs, even though I'm genuinely distressed by this stupid and stinky puppet in my face.
... hmmm... so what was that about? I'm guessing it's a reflection of my own expectations. I mean, a guy with a puppet isn't exactly scary, and the 'dero puppet' is really my own perception of things. So I guess it's just a reflection of the fact that sometimes we simply don't understand what it is that stresses the other out, and don't understand what it is that makes us laugh, and misunderstand each other.
So last night it was meant to end - fullstop. But it didn't. That's where this blog comes in handy - I've pretty much got the whole relationship encoded in this blog in some form or another - from the end of February 2005 (on the old site). I've recorded good and bad things, and as we were looking through it last night, I guess maybe we just realised that we were being a little bit silly... and that everything we've shared is too prescious to give up just like that - there's a way out of it... we just have to try harder to get over what is really the same problem we've always had.
So we have to make this work, because I'm the kind of person who makes my dreams come true - and I've been dreaming of you for over two years! How could I give up now, right?
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