Monday, June 18, 2007
And why shouldn't I feel upset?
With just three weeks left in Australia, I feel as though things are collapsing in a heap. There's no boom, no bang, so "there she goes folks!" (not that it's what I want)... but well... I am undecided as to whether I'm happy to be leaving or feeling nostalgic.
A week ago, when I handed in my last essay, I naturally breathed a sigh of relief, and promptly skipped off to Wollongong and Sydney for a little R&R (in the guise of a work-experience trip for my friends over in the HR side of things). But at the same time, I wasn't grinning like an idiot as I, satisfied, dumped my notes in the recycle bin. I had, at best, a lopsided kinda smile that felt like it might turn into a grimace at any moment.
I guess this is goodbye...
But why am I upset enough to be blogging about it? I guess, despite my cynicism, I at least had expected my 'knight in shining armour' to be there for me when I got back. Especially when he insisted he would. Especially... well... enough of me ranting... what's the point of caring at this stage? It's not as though I haven't done things myself in the past. I just wish I'd stop investing my faith in shaky, unproven ventures.
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